This time in my life can best be expressed by the word “Freedom”. No longer do I have to worry if anyone else is hungry, thirsty, warm, cold or needs a nap. I can focus on me. I just wish I remembered how to.
For many years I have put my children’s needs first. Now I am beginning to think of myself as a separate entity with my own needs and wants. It’s amazing the things I see that I think I would enjoy and the freedom of knowing I don’t need a babysitter or anyone to take care of others so I can go and enjoy . . . do you see what just happened? One of them woke up, came out here, announced he was hungry and I lost my muse. I guess you never stop being a mother. Let me go see what we can have for dinner.